Well, I had the most bizarre dream last night and couldn't wait to write it down.
Alright, first I have to kind of update you on some people. So, you know Kevin... well, before I went out with him I actually had a major crush on his best friend, Landon. Also at this time, Scarlet liked Kevin (she even went on a date with him... very awkward....). But a few weeks ago, Scarlet told me that she likes Landon!! Now, Scarlet, Landon and Kevin have all been great friends since before I met them so this was a HUGE shock. But on Wednesday last week me Scarlet and Landon were all talking in English but.... uhh.... Landon kind of ignored her and was talking to me almost the entire time! I couldn't be rude not to mention I am a talk-a-holic so of course I was joking around with him and talking up a storm.
After that class I apologized to Scarlet and said that I wasn't trying to flirt with him or go after him or anything like that and she told me that she really didn't care if I did. She said it was just too painful to like him because she "knew" she would never be with him. So she claims now that she doesn't like him.
And we have a problem...
........................
I think maybe possibly a wee bit slightly that my tiny crush on him is coming back....
BUT I think it's partially sub-consciencely!
{which brings me to my dream}
ok, so last night I had a dream:
I was at my house along with like all my relatives and John was there with his girlfriend and Landon was there. So, it was kind of a weird dream because it came in little parts; nothing really flowed right. Kinda like random scenes mixed around. One time I went to my room and John was sitting on my bed and he smiled at me, then he was kissing his girlfriend in the basement, then he like winked at me and then he was playing around with her outside. In between some of these random scenes were just me and Landon having friendly conversations, like we do at school, just joking around being friends.
So you know that feeling you get when you like someone and they notice you; that stomach-dropped butterfly sorta feeling? I DIDNT KNOW YOU COULD GET THAT FEELING IN A DREAM!!!! but apparently you can.
So after I saw Kevin and his gf outside walking together I was kinda bummed so I got my laptop and sat on the couch. I was looking at like cars or something and Landon came to sit next to me. We were just talking about the cars and stuff, laughing and having fun and then once we stopped laughing, he randomly put his arm around me.
my.... stomach.... DROPPED
what the heck!
What's worse?? In the dream I smiled!!!
Then I proceeded to put my laptop down and lay my head on his shoulder! He kissed my forehead and wrapped his arms around me!
even if I was asleep how could I betray Scarlet!....... I don't know...
But I didn't want to wake up......
It felt amazing to just be curled up with someone who seemed to actually like me.
And I'm ashamed to say that two thoughts were going through my head when I woke up:
1) the phrase "All is fair in love and war"
2) I wanted more than anything for that dream to come true...
ugh... and I'm angry at myself for being excited about going to school tomorrow!! lol!...
I hate highschoool.
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